Did you ever have a dream or aspiration that you felt would never be accomplish? This Frog did! As a young frog I had a goal that I would receive a higher education. I would have been first the generation to attend a College or University. I would take AP courses and maintained Honor Role status throughout high school. This frog would obtain her goals, or so she thought.
Life has a funny way of veering you off course. I never had an outreach of support yet I maintained my desire to achieve. Until one day as I was filling out applications for universities. I had a teacher walk up to me and tell me I was too late. Too late for what? To go to college! I had failed to take all my pretest and get my applications out in a timely fashion, yet I was just a senior in high school. I was told not to even try! Are you kidding me! Thank you dear teacher for destroying my dreams.
I proceeded to graduate that year. Then get married to my high school sweet heart and have a baby. That was it, my dreams wiped away. I was to be a mother and a wife with no dreams of her own. I love being a mother, yet I felt so empty. I made the best of it having five beautiful children, and creating new goals. Yet that has not been enough for me. I needed to have my own dream once more.
In our life we often have to relearn new things, to find our self-confidence, to dream!
A few months ago I happened I was motivated to chase my goal once more. If I could overcome the amazing hurdles I have faced, why not this one. I was going to combine my passions of the great outdoors and science. I was going go into Forestry! Mmm... bump once more my dream was denied. My Dream would require us moving to an area of extreme weather, I would love that! My family however would not share my enthusiasm of extreme winters. Then there is the problem of removing my kids from their school. The school we moved a thousand miles to attend. Just so my children with their unique needs would have a chance at a successful life. Then there was the high probability of relocating once more for a job in that field. It was just not a family friendly choice for us. With that all I could hear from the resounding No's is you can't go and achieve your goals. So I sat befuddled on my Lilly pad.
With yet another dream dashed the pressure mounted, sending my mind in to great turmoil. The fears of not being able to maintain my current job due to my lack of schooling and what ifs’ of life was too much. This frog, me, I need security! I am always preparing, always with a backup plan. I had no great plan once more. I let this mess of emotions stew for some time as i continued to look, hoping to find a new spark.
From some an unrelated conversation was that spark of encouragement I needed. With that single spark I regained focus. What was another passion I could pursue? Then it hit me as I stared at a pile of new fitness clothes I just won. I would go into fitness training and Nutritional Education! I area I have succeeded at, a passion on mine. An active job, one I could do indoors or outside. One people will love and pay to hate me for. Once more, I could use to help my own family. On that I submitted my application to Salt lake Community College and my FAFSA. I should be attending school this fall.
With a simple click of a mouse a mounting pressure was released. This short frog grew several inches in moments. In a flash new back up plans where immediately in placed providing a scene of wellbeing and that all important security. This simple act will now allow me to complete several goals at once and fill the empty space of my sole. Teaching an empty frog to dream once more and continue life with a passion. Life may not always take the path first planed, but is can still take you to your destiny.
If your life if a treasure waiting to be found. Your attitude is the map! By controlling your attitude you control your destiny.
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